i like cheese

strange mood

2009-03-19T01:42:26Z

there is a beautiful 10 pound donut on tv. if only we lived in the future like the jetsons.. maybe that donut could be mine right now.

i already feasted enough for today ... i sat in boredom all day long. and will do so until i eventually fall asleep. im drinking a gin & squirt right now hoping it will maybe make me tired enough to just fucking sleep.

literally i did nothing today. me and kt sat on the couch for 5 hours.. almost 6.
sean had a show tonite. he is there now waiting to play but theyre playing at 10ish and i am tired and fuckin cranky for some reason. so i didnt go. i thought they were opening and playing at 7. i feel really mean for not going.

i miss my boyfriend. i always do dumb stuff and feel like maybe it might piss him off. but he didnt seem mad at me .. i think the root of our arguments is because we want to see each other. how silly is that? lol. well i guess it's a better thing to argue about than like.. something horrible. but i notice that happens .. haha. but i do miss him. i will see him tomorrow though, cuz i have to pick him up from work and it is alissa's 11th birthday! so strange because when i met her she was 8. just a little tiny girl. and now she's nearly a frickin teen! haha. she's precious

man this bombay sapphire is starting to kick in. mmmm om nom nom. love me some gin.

this computer screen makes me feel drunk

i want a big ol medium rare steak. mmmm. if only i could go to ruth chris more often. if only. i hope one day i become rich and then i will take my dad there as often as a i can.. cuz he is my daddy and he deserves it.

speaking of parents, both of my parents are laid off. it is kind of scary. i really hope they will both be okay.

im in the mood to watch alien shows. or lochness monster shows. or egypt shows. shiiiiit.

things

2009-01-07T03:26:41Z

so!
my family is gettin a new puppy hopefully tomorrow, but probably thursday. hes a little chihuahua and i hope he ends up with long hair! i wish!! i want to buy him a hoodie cuz i think that would be very bad ass.

xmas was gooooood. so was new years. good times good times. writing in here feels very lame now. like no one gives a shit. right?

xmas stuff:
- green ipod nano. :) really cute!
- pink nintendo ds.. soo cute! i bought a hello kitty cover for it.
- a new fabulous coat
- a fuckin laptop!!! which i am in love with. thanks mommy!!!
- cute clothings
- new necklace from sean :) it has lovebirds on it. awwww

i got a lot of other random things too. but those are the main important things.

lalala. so what else is new... nothing really.
life is life. i mysteriously sprouted a shitload of white hair in the front of my head overnite. so i plucked those fuckers out.

i want new clothes. but i need to clean my closet out first. definitely. it is so fucking packed. damn. anyone need clothes?

fudge. i really have nothing exciting to talk about.
i like fudge. well not really. only sometimes.
i need more games for my DS
also should go to bed now cuz i am an old woman who gets tired at 7

oh yeah im turnin 22 at the end of the month. so weird i feel like i just turned 21. whatever.

my boyfriend is so great. we get mad at each other sometimes so bad. but we have been trying to talk things out instead of freak out immediately haha. we're both very sensitive and assuming shit all the time. but we are totally in love .. and fighting is normal. our 2 year anniversary was 2 weeks ago. it was fun. we went to chilis cuz we love it there. and had a grand feast. and coronas with lime. yum. can i just say i fucking love coronas and i fucking love mexican food. holy shit.

i want to watch neverending story!!! i got that for xmas! what a great gift :))))) atreyu is the cutest little boy! oh man..

lol

2008-10-12T21:33:51Z

man i went back and read some old entries in this journal and boy oh boy was i whiny! and talked about the same shit over and over again.

a lot in life has happened since i stopped updating regularly.

my hair now long :) and has light brown in it! finally!

i have 2 tattoos. one i love one i hate

i have been working at my job for a year and a half. and i like my girls but hate my workplace. sometimes. it aggravates me greatly.

theres a new mall opening about 5 minutes from my house and this is very exciting!! no more woodfield!!

i love my boyfriend! we have been dating almost 2 years now hehe.

its halloween time which is the greatest time of the year!!! last nite i went to a halloween type festival and ate a lot of deep fried things. and i soared through the sky like kiefer in lost boys

i am gunna be tinkerbell for halloween and its gunna be really cute! i wanna go to statesville so badly. but no one wants to go with me. wahhhh.

the other day i went to sonic it was pretty good. if you go you should get the cherry limeade its fucking awesome. mmmm

my lip hurts i keep picking it :(

i want a new digital camera... and to just start taking more pictures in general!

hot wad

2008-09-26T02:27:02Z

five dollar
five dollar
five dollah foot lawwwwng
actually in chicago we say foot "lahhhhng"

dude i totally miss you
i totally fuckin miss you

me dressed up as an 80s woman at a costume party

me and seany on 3rd of july
he has a yellow tongue and looks really funny

I MET DITKA

i need to rant

2008-07-15T02:41:39Z

about my job. no one needs to read this, i am just frustrated and need to bitch. and also i think it'll be funnyish when i can look back and read how fucking annoying my job is!!!

so i work as a hairstylist at a corporately owned salon. however, my salon isn't the point of the store i work in. we are just hidden in the back of a store full of makeup/hair/beauty products. i have worked there since may 2007.

okay so i started there as VERY part time and at first i didnt mind. i wanted more hours and almost 6 months later i finally got more (still not technically "full time"). around march/april this year i became officially "full time" aka eligable for benefits/insurance/etc. i STILL don't have insurance and every time i ask they act like they don't even know when or how i will become insured. they just say "oh it should come in the mail". okay whatever, i haven't really NEEDED insurance.. so no big deal i guess. i actually don't care that much. i just think it's unprofessional for my MANAGERS not to even let me know, or know how i get insurance.

we are a redken affiliated salon. so basically we can only use redken color, shampoo, products etc. that's okay with me, i don't love redken products but whatever. the problem is that they have now reduced our weekly budget (what we use to buy EVERYTHING for the salon) to only 100$. and not only that but for the past 6 months they just happen to 'forget' to send our orders almost every week. so we are already out of all the basic colors almost always. we are also constantly out of shampoo, which costs 25$ per gallon and we need at least 6 gallons of the different shampoos/conditioners. so we can't even afford all the shampoo we need! so our manager decided she would buy fucking tresemme shampoo and fill up the redkens bottles WITH STUPID CHEAP 3.50$ SHIT. i know this probably doesnt seem like a big deal.. but how can i legitimately sell redken products to a client if i am not even using redken?

moving on.. since we have no color including permanant, semi permanant, bleach, developer, plastic caps, foil etc we have to go buy cheap shitty color from this shitty beauty supply down the street and it is SO damaging to peoples hair. (keep in mind this is not redken, so once again we are lying to our clients) instead of damaging peoples hair, we have to tell our clients "sorry we can't take you because we dont have your color in stock". even if they had made their appointment like 8 weeks in advance. this makes us looks unprofessional and stupid. i think it pisses people off a lot. so, our weekly budget is 100$ because they claim we aren't making enough money. well how am i supposed to even do my fucking job and make money if i have to refuse my clients??

sometimes we dont feel like refusing clients so we have to leave work and this other stylist goes on her day off to buy the bare necessities out of our own pockets! and half the time we dont even get paid back for the stuff we bought! i have done this many times.

okay next subject, in the last 6 months we have lost 3 stylists. so now there is only 5 of us left (4 if you dont count my barely ever there manager) left to cover all the hours. we are open every day 10 to 9, and sundays 11 to 6. instead of working the hours we all agreed to, now im stuck working almost every weekend ALL WEEKEND! i never see my dad anymore because im supposed to see him on weekends and now i work friday, saturday, sunday. a few of us have worked a whole week in a row with no thanks from our managers. to add to this, our manager for some reason pretty much refuses to work nights. the ONE DAY a week she is on schedule past 5, she NEVER EVER EVER stays until close. she is supposed to be working a minimum of 45 hours a week, so 5 days a week 9 hour days. i am not kidding, she works like 4 days a week and comes in at 10 and leave at 1 or 2 EVERY DAY!!! how is this fair when the rest of us our busting our asses for this bitch? one time this other stylist jeanette was on schedule from 10 to 5 on a saturday. out of nowhere the salon manager decided she didnt want to close that saturday and put jeanette in the computer from 10 to 9 without even telling or asking jeanette! an 11 hour day for a hairstylist is absolutely ridiculous, im sorry. i fcuking worship people who can actually do that without going nuts. hair stylists are supposed to have laid back working schedules, and i think they are seriously overstepping their boundaries by not even asking us what days we can or can't work.

i feel like i could write for days about tons of little things.

we have this event going on now where every day at certain times we are supposed to demo products. our manager decided to go on vacation (which by the way i worked for her) the weekend the event started, without even telling us what to do for each day. we had NO IDEA and looked like big giant jackasses when people asked about it. we just basically bullshitted everything we said to people. i think thats ridiculous. i dont like lying to people or bullshitting them. so i told people 'sorry my manager left without explaining what to do, if you want to complain please feel free'.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

so basically im searching for a new salon and it is so hard :(

oh yes, and i went on a vacation in june and i am supposed to get paid vacations. guess what, they didn't pay me! this has happened to a few of the girls.

your in my head

2008-04-21T01:41:17Z

got 2 new pairs of heels.
and 2 new tank tops
and 2 new flip flops
and 2 (new) sega games
and a choose your own adventure book
and a hippy dress
and a miniature bottle of belvedere vodka
and a bottle of uv blue vodka
and a bottle of strawberry and kiwi wine.

what a grand day!

life lately

2008-04-18T00:47:52Z

- can't stop listening to tiny dancer because of almost famous.
- had a good yet strange day at work
- works been.. meh.
- i really!!!!! love my boyfriend! oh what a great man
- we are meant to be
- i am now obsessed with ryan gosling. not obsessed. but he's a sexy betch

- i am now officially full time at work! yes! this means insurance and paid vacations. my one year anniversary is may 2nd. :)
- i am in love with alize rose mmmm
- i like being 21. but i pretty much never drink.
- lmao. yesterday me and kt saw "jeffree star" at woodfield. we loled
- i wanna cut my hair short kinda. but i wont haha
- love miley cyrus hahaha
- fucking love enchanted
- love word searches more than ever

oh sheesh im boring

today i voted for the first time!

2008-02-06T02:20:54Z

yay!

and now i will do a survey.

Long & Random. Check this out.

1. What’s your favorite ice cream flavor?
COCONUT! or cupcake/birthday cake

2. Cable or Satellite?
cable. satellite sucks ass

3. Favorite video game?
super mario or sonic

4. Do you have to sleep with a fan on at night?
in the summer i do pretty much every nite

5. Your feelings on global warming?
i think it's all a lie. explain the ridiculously FREEZING cold this year if it's 'getting warmer'

6. Do you still have a VCR somewhere?
oh yeah. i have a dvd/vcr player because i still love all my vhs tapes!

7. Been on a sailboat?
haha nope i hate boats

8. Two of your best friends are fighting. Your reaction?
i dont even have 1 best friend haha

9. Home Depot or Lowes?
the depot

10. Beer or Hard Liquor?
if im watching sports or chillin - bud light. if i wanna get buzzed i drink liquor

11. Best movie you’ve seen recently?
i've seen a lot of good ones! i loved heartbreak kid

12. Would you walk across broken glass for $100?
haha sorry no

13. Your feelings on dolphins?
such cuties!

14. Would you ever rob a bank?
hah no

15. Do you plan out your day before it begins?
somedays. usually only when i'm alone. i have a problem with set times though.

16. What kind of digital camera do you have?
nikon L12

17. Can you fall asleep with your eyes open?
lmao no

18. Winter or Summer?
SUMMER. i am soo done with winter.

19. Your ex’s car breaks down and they ask you for a lift. Your response?
haha i dont think he'd ask.

20. Your feelings on Britney?
love her new cd. but damn she needs helps

21. Do you go to the gym regularly?
no. but i wanna start!

22. Ever play with model trains?
aha no

23. You’ve just bought a new house. What color will you paint the walls in the living room?
i dont know! i love all colors

24. Best subject in school?
art. or history/civics/economics

25. What are your goals for this year?
pssh save up money, make more money, go on a fun vacation!

26. Do you spread false rumors about people just for the hell of it?
no i'm not 13

27. Do you consider yourself religious?
no. i believe in a god but i am definitely not "christian"

28. Internet Explorer or Firefox?
maxthon

29. Ever play online poker?
nope

30. For real money?
nope

31. Describe the first house you lived in.
i don't remember! i was a newborn to a couple months old. it was brown and normal sized and in streamwood about 3 minutes from where i live now

32. Do you want to kick someone in the face right now?
haha yeah.

33. Favorite sport to watch?
basketball or bears games

34. You see someone running around naked in the street. Your reaction?
HAHAHAHAHAH!

35. How much syrup do you put on your waffles and/or pancakes for breakfast?
lots

36. Favorite junk food?
all of it. lol

37. Bottled water. Yes or no?
yep

38. Do you have a lot of candles in your room?
i wish. i wanna go to target so bad and get some cool stuff for my room. target is my happy place

39. Are the files in your computer well organized or all over the place?
semi organized

40. Are there dogs barking in your neighborhood right now?
im listening to britney so i cant hear em. haha

41. Where would you most like to be right now?
cabo on the beach. drinking and making sweet love. lol

42. Do you own a sleeping bag?
yep

43. UFC. Entertaining or stupid?
entertaining

44. Favorite reality show?
rock of love!!

45. What was the first CD you ever bought?
madonna - bedtime stories

46. Are all infomercials completely pointless?
NO I LOVE THEM! i sometimes get so involved and watch them for hours.

47. Who are you voting for in 2008?
barack obama. or whatever democrat there is

48. If money was no object, what car would you drive?
jaguar xj8 or cadillac escalade

49. Last 5 played songs in your Itunes playlist?
Cascada – What Hurts The Most now listening
Britney Spears – Boys just listened
Sara Bareilles – Love Song 2 minutes ago
Cascada – What Hurts The Most 10 minutes ago
R. Kelly – Leave Your Name 13 minutes ago

50. Was this survey random enough for you?
sure

strawbizzle @ 2008-01-29T10:09:00

2008-01-29T16:03:49Z

i am finally 21 today
and i dont even care

dah

2008-01-07T17:09:31Z

72% Mike Gravel
66% John Edwards
66% Chris Dodd
65% Dennis Kucinich
64% Barack Obama
62% Hillary Clinton
60% Joe Biden
60% Bill Richardson
49% Ron Paul
45% Mitt Romney
43% Rudy Giuliani
41% Tom Tancredo
40% John McCain
39% Mike Huckabee
39% Fred Thompson

2008 Presidential Candidate Matching Quiz

merry xmas !

2007-12-26T01:58:33Z

christmas was awesome! my beloved seany came with last nite to my grammas and step grammas. we had a good time and played with the kids a lot. my ass and legs HURT SO BAD from playing ping pong too..

my stepdad is obsessed with sean lmao. its hilarious

sooooo i ate way too much in the last couple days.. its wrong. i can not have like any sugar or else i will go into a coma i swear.

lets see. heres what i got for xmas

from sean:
- betsey johnson wallet!
- betsey johnson huge ass purse!
- betsey johnson perfume (cuz im running out)
- black uggs. :)

from kt:
- 50$ aa gift card
- 2 frederick fekkai thingies
- the dane cook stand up cd/dvd

from daddio:
- aa hoodie
- aa triblend v neck
- this cute black shirt
- a bright yellow super soft shirt
- another chi. lol i love chi's!
- an 80$ spa gift card aka an hour long massage
- oh and an aa tube dress thats on backorder

from mom:
- nikon l12 camera. and some little accessories sooo awesome!!
- juicy couture perfume mmm
- KERPLUNK the game
- a 60 minute massage, a manicure and pedicure
- simple life season 4
- blow
- bear pajama pants
- a body pillow~~!!!
- and a shit load of other stuff!

and i got kt a whole spa package, sunglasses, a wallet, bangles, and this shirt she wanted. i got my dad snl season 2. i got my mom a spa package. i got sean a digital camera, ron artest jersey, angels and airwaves tickets and a cute little hoodie.

i had a good xmas it was fabulous and i now i am gunna sleep :)

i like:

2007-10-23T01:37:24Z

- little kid haunted houses and screaming even though they arent scary
- getting scared at dumb vampire movies
- my good prend shay
- seanboy
- matching hippy costumes
- the fact that sean surprised me on sweetest day with flowers and candy lol. how cute
- that i get 25% off stuff at work
- that i have 100$ of tips in my wallet
- halloween movies being on tv all the time
- flaming hot cheetos
- baby pigs when they run
- hunter sleepin and cuddling with me and trying to lay on my neck
- but instead i push him off so he sleeps by my feet
- fall in general

What Do You Have To Say? - Entertainment: Celebrity Style

2007-10-08T19:28:49Z

Which celebrities have the best style?

Brought to you by HP | Vote for the winners!

View other answers

nicole richie and mary kate olsen.

wait

2007-09-26T00:35:24Z

i want to go back to college
and i really need aderall..

OMG

2007-09-08T07:12:54Z

i fucking love him so much!
sean peters is my favorite man ever

strawbizzle @ 2007-08-20T21:02:00

2007-08-21T01:59:27Z

hello.

so my tits grew! yay/nooo. i like my big(ger) tatas but i had to buy all new bras. but they do look really fabulous in dresses/tank tops/bras. plus sean loves boobs so i guess it isnt that bad. its just im so little otherwise so all my tshirts are tighter in the boob area.

im glad everyone starts school in 2 days. so glad. i like summer.. but i LOVE fall. and i hate how everyone is having fun and im working. plus then when me and sean wake up no one is home ;)

yesterday i worked 7 hours and sat down once to eat 3 pieces of pizza and some chicken finger things that made me almost vomit on this adorable client i had. i made 350 dollars in services and like 50 in tips! not too shabby.

anyway. i really love doing hair (when people are nice/funny). seeing how happy it makes them really makes my day! i am living up to my beauty school name as an amazing bang trimmer. haha. i can create fabulous bangs immediately. i had one girl come in with jacked up bangs and i fixed them so nicely that her mom brought in her other daughter an hour later and she asked for my card and when i work! then i had another girl yesterday who had someone mess up giving her "nicole richie bangs" (my specialty) so i fixed them and then her and her mom asked for my card too. i have decided i like cutting better than color. unless the color is funky and cute and fun. blonde highlights and dark blonde lowlights = boring/mindless/painful. i have the worst ADD so doing that for an hour drives me crazy.

on saturday me, sean and derrick all hung out. we went to woodfield and derrick loved it. i bought a few things for work.. one of which i want to return cuz its an itchy wool vest and i didnt try it on and i hate it. im not skinny enough for it anyway. anyhow, after that i knew that they'd get the munchies but they both claimed they werent hungry. i knew it was coming. i have the maternal instinct. so i drove to dennys but it smelled like piss and looked trashier than ever .. so after a short debate we walked out and went to ihop instead. good choice.

by the time we got there they were both like dying of hunger haha. i finally tried IHOP pancakes .. sean let me have what he didnt eat. they were SO GOOD. i normally get grilled cheese.

then we got seans car and i dropped off derrick. me and sean went home and had good times. i had lots of fun haha. :)

strawbizzle @ 2007-08-15T22:34:00

2007-08-16T03:32:33Z

i love sean sosososososososoosos much. hes so cute always
and we love the coreys
(he likes haim i like feldman)
we love each other and we love taco bell
im so happy!

vincent mcgee

2007-07-30T03:46:56Z

pomeranian - pierre jose montoya III
maltese - wicket
long hair chihuahua - vincent mcgee or just mcgee
bunny - pancakes or george

yesterday was warped tour. i met claudio. got sweet coheed shorts
got lost the way there and back.
i am now the proud owner of the most HICK fucking farmers tan ever.
underoath was legit. my purse was in the way sooo no crazyness :'(
lots of lame people.. whatever.
4 dollar water. 8 dollar plain everything. STUPID!!

i had lots of good talkative and cute clients today. one woman just found out she's pregnant and she was so happy. it was cute!

i wanna get some random light brown (level 5 or 6) highlights in my hair. yes i dooooo

i havent had a real weekend in 3 weeks now. ive worked all of them. it sucks!! but it will payoff when i get my next 2 checks. and i have to work the next 2 weekends too :'( depressing

i wanna get my freckles removed :( and i want a chin job and a nose job lol.

also i wanna get down to 100 or less lbs by october. only 10 lbs to go!

i always pick all the skin around my nails away when im stressed out/annoyed/pissed

WHY DONT YOU EVER CALL WHEN YOU SAY YOU WILL??

bob always puts a smile on my face

paralyzed

2007-07-23T01:46:32Z

im really really happy
even though i'm broke
sean makes me so happy. :)

yesterday i made 270 dollars in services at work. yay!

im reaaaaaally bored and i wish sean would call me and ask me to hangout cuz im bored and im finally done with my period! but hes doin a haircut. CALL ME! god

im going to warped tour on saturday
excitement..

sooo my birth control is awesome. my period was 4 days long and its never done that my whole life. barely any cramps. no weight gain (yet). and now i tan really well. weird huh? haha. however my pms was worse than ever. but then again i was really stressed last week so that could be the cause.

guys i wanna move out so bad.
with.. sean. haha! im too afraid to tell him. dont wanna move too fast

ummmm my hair is getting long. my bangs mainly. havent cut them since february. jeez louise

strawbizzle @ 2007-07-17T17:50:00

2007-07-17T22:48:57Z

i love sean peters so much! sooooooooooo much. he makes me so happy!

optimus prime poster for fingers

i really wanna move out.. so bad. i need more hours. i kinda wanna quit my job cuz they wont give me more. mehhhhhhhh.. i want like 450++ dollar checks not 120 dollar checks. god dammit

strawbizzle @ 2007-07-13T21:14:00

2007-07-14T02:12:58Z

my birth control is MAKING ME FUCKING CRAZY!
i think ive cried like every single fucking day this week and im always pissed off.

i want to go off of it so bad. i cant even afford it

i have acne which never happens to me. im always bitchy and im normally always happy. im gaining weight and it drives me insane

plus i went tanning today and i burnt my whole ass, my vag area, and my tits. WTF I HATE LIFE

carlisle

2007-07-08T06:16:44Z

heyy i just thought i'd update saying i had liek the best week ever .. seriously. my mom went out of town and katie went to my dads house. so i stayed at my moms alone until friday nite. :)

last friday was my great grandmas funeral. it was sad but also really happy and fun to hear all the stories about her. apparently she was 100% bohemian. isn't that crazy? no wonder i'm a hippie at heart haha. during the funeral i sat with my baby cousins michael (2 yrs old) and julia (4 yrs old). julia rested her head on my shoulder and held my hand during the whole thing. it was sososo cute. anyway, after we buried her ashes we all threw roses into her grave. and then we went to a polish buffet and i ate sooo many perogi's and potato pancakes and many other polish yummies. lol.

last saturday was laddies party. i spent the beginning of the day at the pool for like 3 hours and drinking haha. then i met with sean and at first i was in a bad mood (crazy hormones from me starting the pill a week before) but i started drinking so i loosened up lol. then vanessa and christine came over there so i started having more fun. seans band played and they were soooo good. i was proud of them. i've seen them practice so many times and they sounded so good. in the middle of their set mikey g came up and put a blunt in seans mouth. hilarious and so perfect. sean was fieshed. when christine and vaya got there i started drinking more soo after seans set i was in a good mood haha. i remember going outside and singing smoke dope and rap with vanessa like 5 times. then patrol wagon played and they were a lot of fun. banti got the shit beat out of him. anyway we ended up having sooo much fun. and vanessa met laddie and now they like each other and have been hanging out a lot ever since. i'm so happy! me and sean knew immediately when they met that they liked each other lol. i saw jim again and he was so drunk and telling me that me, him and sean need to hang out and get drunk and see more movies together LOL. last time i did that i ended up puking all over myself and passing out at like 6 different places in the movie theatre AHAHAH. but yeah .. the party was so much fun!

then i was supposed to work on sunday but i called in sick cuz i was .. sick. haha. i went over to seans that nite and slept over. we were both tired as hell and hungover.

i came home monday morning and my mom was gone. i was so sad! this nite me and sean went on a double date with vanessa and laddie. we went mini golfing at this tacky little 1960's place. it was so hard lol. everything was par 2 (bullshit). then we drove around blasting metal and went back to laddies and laid in the grass. sean made me cry from laughing like 40 times. reelin in the years. WCRL...SL. cargyle. after that me and sean went home and got in our first fight (my fault. once again hormonal) it was so stupid. but whatever, we talked about it and ever since then we've been better than ever so yeah. i went home then since i had work the next day.

on tuesday sean came over to my house and we made pizza and watched silent hill. then we got sleepy ;). so we went sleeepy. i wanted to sleep in my moms bed SO BAD cuz its big and puffy. but it was so creepy in there. so we slept in my room instead. then we woke up at like 11ish. took showers and ate a little bit. we just chilled out all day and i made him dinner (a deluxe grilled cheese .. haha my speciality). he said it was the best sandwich ever. then i did dishes etc etc and cleaned up.

we both got ready and then went over to laddies for his 4th of july party. i couldn't drink since i had work early the next day. so i played like 60 rounds of fooseball. so many that the next day my forearms and hands hurt haha. me and ashley really wanted to see the fireworks so i got sean to take me down to the fox river and we sat on the edge and watched them with vanessa&laddie and ashley& christian. cuddle/kiss fest. sean saw a shooting star !! crazy. the fireworks were cute! little dandelion puffs and heart shaped ones! we had lots of fun. then we walked back to laddies and watched carlisles blow off fireworks. scary a little bit. georgey was acting hilarious. then we went to beefes and i left with vanessa cuz she felt sick cuz she drank so much beer so we went to get her food. i made a pb&j and a jimmy dean breakfast sandwich haha. they were both really yummy. i drank half a bottle of sparkling wine. 40 grams of sugar EW. then georgey came in and said sean was bitching about me. i knew he pissed since i left beefes without saying where i was going. no he isn't that possessive but thats like what our fight was about ( not really, he kinda misunderstood what i said) so it made him mad cuz i guess he thought i was being a hypocrite. plus he was really drunk haha. but as soon as i talked to him he wasnt mad anymore, he just said he was sad that i left him. i felt really bad. then some people were creeping him out so we left and i slept over at his house cuz he didnt wanna leave me lol. i left at 8;30 the next morning and went to work.

then on friday sean FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER!!! drove to my house! he finally got a car/his license back so yayayay. he got there around 8:30 and then we went to AMC and saw transformers. it was so cute and i loved it. it felt like a late 80s/90s movie haha. im in love with optimus prime and bumble bee. megan fox is so pretty and i love shia too. hes hilarious. after that sean came over for a leetle beet and then he had to go home cuz it was late and he isnt allowed to keep his car out over nite yet.

yesterday i had work and it was boring. i had a great day at work on thurs. i was so busy. and yesterday was like .. dead. my usual friday morning client blew me off. i miss her :( then i came home and laid out. i fell asleep. i dont know how. i got kinda tan but i didnt lay out long enough. whatever! then i took a shower and cleaned up my house and came to my dads.

i really am gunna miss living alone. i felt so free and it was so relaxing lol. i miss it :( surprisingly i love cleaning and i love making all my own meals. and doing what i want.

me and sean are doing so good. i love him sooo much. :) he makes me really happy whenever i see him or talk to him. i love my carlisle :D

im pissed. at work we're going to six flags. not only am i gunna miss a day of work for it (i only work 3 days already.. now itll be 2) but im gunna have to spend money on the ticket/gas and food. i dont want to go at all. i only have fun when im with like my friends or family and i barely know the people at work, ya know? and i hate most rides soo blah. i dont wanna go at all!!

i think im gunna try to get a job at vanessas work. we're never busy at my work. and i work 12 hours (stupid). and i barely have clients. if i work with vanessa.. ill have vanessa. and insurance and i can choose the days/hours i want. i like my job other than the hours/money/clients. which is basically the point of being a hairstylist lol. i LOVE being totally busy which is what its like at v's work. soo yeah. im afraid to quit my job though :\\\ whatev. i just wanna work tues/thurs/fri 9-5 and maybe saturday 9-5. i'll see what happens.

we about to let it flow oh oh oh

2007-06-26T00:29:32Z

started my bc last nite. no strange side effects yet.

i need to tell my boss that i cant work friday or saturday. yikes..

i wanna smoke pot again.. but im nervous. i had a realllyyy bad high when i smoked 4 blunts once. it scared me and i havent smoked since. sean keeps offering it to me again now haha.. and im like UGH. cuz part of me wants to but part of me totally does not at all.

so sean is gunna get a car soon (praying). hopefully hes gunna go get it tomorrow or wednesday. and then after his next paycheck in 3 weeks hes gunna get a cell phone. yay!!! (i hope i didnt jinx anything)

i really like this song.

i watched you me and dupree last nite and i loved it. it was so awesome ahaha.

last nite i did a self tanner (endless summer) and it turned out so dark and good. i love it. :)

man oh man.. we finally swam in our pool today. it was awesome until i got water in both my ears and it felt like my head was cracking in half. it hurt so bad.

bitches

2007-06-22T01:39:32Z

hi. today i had a really bad day at work PEOPLE NEED TO NOT FUCKING LIE ABOUT DYING THEIR HAIR!!! god.. i stayed past my shift by almost 2 hours. and i gave her 25% off since she was only 14. she was nice and all but mann it was such hard work and it didn't turn out like it should've because she lied to me about dying her hair... BAH.

anyway.. seans birthday was on tuesday. he's 20 now. he had a bonfire at his house. the party ended at like 3ish. i didnt even drink really. i had one shot. but it was fun anyway. anyhow, i got him a coheed shirt hes wanted for so long that he told me about and a lebron poster. he loved them both so i was happy cuz i was afraid he wouldn't like them! but i think he had a really good birthday and im happy. :)

apparently me and seans 6 month anniversary is on saturday lol. i just assumed it already passed becuz .. OMG I JUST CHECKED AND ITS TOMORROW!! haha not saturday lolololol. sorry. anyway, i assumed it already passed becuz me and sean were basically dating way before december 22nd. but whatever. i guess he thinks its the 23rd. lol. i guess we're gunna go out to eat for it or something, hopefully it will be delicious and fun.

im so excited that tomorrow is payday! yaaaay!

strawbizzle @ 2007-06-05T19:46:00

2007-06-06T00:44:58Z

i'm sooooooo bored.
and i wanna go thrifting or shopping but im sooo fucking tired. i can barely open my eyes all the way.

tuesdays are like fridays for me. and i hate when i dont do anything. waste of life.

andy dick is fucking annoying and he can't act and he isn't funny.

i'm sad that my girl paris is in jail. i love her.

i cant wait for friday.. i get paid.
i have to work saturday 3 to 9 i'm so sad. plzzzzz people come in for haircuts or blowdrys omg

tomorrow is something. i'm nervous. :\\

i want strawberry frozen yogurt and raspberry sorbet.

diet pepsi and chinese food both make me so sick. i'm really sad those are 2 of my favorite things.

i think i'm gunna get extensions. my hair is too short.

i miss terrence.
i slept at his house for like 400000 days in a row. and havent seen him since yesterday afternoon so now it feels weird not to see him for so long lol.

i think im gunna go take a nap. but probably actually just fall asleep for the whole nite. bye